This year I turn 34. Finding out that I had (using the past tense had because I have that much faith believing I will be FREE of) cancer, my attitude and reaction was a bit different. Once Dr.Bidus told me I immediately thought “OK, now what do I have to do to not have cancer?”
I did go thru some crying times as well as some laughing times but here is one story I must share with you.
December 21st 2015, I was getting ready to receive my first round of chemo. The whole entire day I was acting like “The Rock” getting ready to jump into the ring and
“WHOOP CANCERS CANDY AZZ!”
There I was… Sitting on my hospital bed. My mom at my side and Thomas (my awesome nurse) at the other side. Everything was good up until I saw the bag of chemo and somehow I went from being THE ROCK to a crying, fragile human being. In that moment I had lost my focus. I knew that everything was going to change. I knew I was going to loose my hawaiian hair and the ability to color and do whatever I wanted with it. I knew my body inside and out would be changing. At that moment of getting hooked up, I started to cry.
And in that very moment, Thomas said to me “YOU GOT THIS! You have 6 kids! This is nothing to you! You can do this!” As he proceeded to give me such an amazing analogy that till this day, every time I see the many different bags of chemotherapy that I am getting and the side effects I go thru and the many different things that are flushing out of my body, I think of this…
“Imagine that every time you see the bags of chemo, it’s like your getting troops and sending in the Elves (from Lord Of The Rings) and they’re going in to KILL THE ORCS!”
AND I TELL YOU WHAT! That has changed my view so much! Every single time I get connected to a bag I always say “DOWN WITH THE ORCS!!!” Every time I see particles in the toilet “DOWN WITH THE ORCS!!!” Every time my bones hurt “DOWN WITH THE ORCS!!!” Every time I feel nauseous “DOWN WITH THE ORCS!!!”
I do believe in the power of prayer. I believe in balancing a spiritual, mental and physical life is important for me to get my body healing. Adding this to my thoughts was an added boost!!! MAHALO NUI LOA THOMAS!!!
This picture was taken January 21th 2016. Day 1.